I have been having trouble lately of overcoming my inner critic. I will draw all day and endup hating most of what I draw and recently I have been talking myself out of creating art at all. I wish I could overcome my extreme crticism of myself.

I have a very low self esteem and want to overcome this. I want to create art for people who truely enjoy my work, I am in the progress of writing a Manga about my friends but I have been so down on myself lately that nothing seems to be going right...

I also have this issue that if I'm not perfect that my work is trash. This has been worse recently because right after a critique in my Sculpture class the teacher came up to me a told me to throw my project in the trash. I was devistated because I had put 45 hours of work into this project and it was trash. It all just seems like it was a waste of time. I hated the project but I still tried my best. I guess what hurt the most was that she talked about putting everyone elses work in a Gallery at the beggining of class. I felt singled out, like I was wearing a dunce hat in the corner of the room.

Ugh I'm so down on myself, why can't I just be happy and enjoy life.

Maybe Halloween will cheer me up a bit. Nothing like dressing up and doing some trick or treating to brighten things up. (I have a little brither who is 8, He is so sweet and its probably gonna be just me and him this year. It oughta be fun ^_^)

Nobody has to read this. I'm just ranting to make myself feel better. (It helps to see how silly I'm being to get over these depressed states I get in ^_^)!

But thank you to all who read this. Its not much but Its how I feel and I'm expressing it! Sometimes words are what I need the most, other times art is what my soul is craving.